Moving was a very hard decision for me. I was really torn about what to do. Although I wanted to stay home and continue my life I knew that I needed to be with my family. I wanted no parts of Arizona but knew I would never forgive myself if I did not help my family. I’ve heard the quotes “When God wants you to grow he makes you uncomfortable” and “I ask God to protect me from my enemies and I started losing friends” plenty of times but they never hit home until now.
I was so uncomfortable here. In Columbus I had to the opportunity to hide form my problems. I did not have to face what was bothering me. I pretended it didn’t happen, or they didn’t mean it. I stayed busy with toxic habits and people. Once I moved and I did not have the leisure of “pretending it didn’t happen” my anxiety took over. I had to deal with my issues. I had to accept that I allowed toxic people to influence my life. I allowed toxic situations to control my life. I was allowing someone whom I haven’t spoken to in almost two years run my life.
I had to take back my life.
STEP 1
Counseling: I started seeing a counselor here in Arizona. This is the best decision I ever made. She’s helping me put happy Samantha back together and shes helping me build a life here in Phoenix. Her advice and exercises have really made me reevaluate my life.
I thank God that he has given me the strength for this journey.
Update: I am officially employed! I currently work par-time for Buffalo Wild Wings as their guest experience coordinator. Starting August 5th I will also be working for Eagle College Preparatory School as their educational assistant(post coming soon). I am very thankful for both of these jobs! I know it will be tiring but I honestly love working and can’t wait for the money to start rolling innnnn!
xo ♥ S